For What It's Worth

I know I can't love you
I know I'm not supposed to care
And that's okay, I can let you go
My burning heart can cool
And mostly I'm still happy
You're over me, it's that simple
You were never under, actually
Even if once you were slightly into me
You found bigger fish to hunt
And sure it hurts my pride, I thought I was the best
And I feel every droplet of resentment trickle through me
But its waning, besides honestly I mostly feel amazing
And I'm sure someday I'll meet someone new
And this time I'll be smooth, witty and cool
And I won't say any of that stupid shit I said to you

But honestly I can't stop loving you
I'll always care
So for what it's worth, please
For me, always remember
No matter if the world's turned its back on you
And you feel lonely and unloved
One person misses you
One person woke up this morning and thought of you
One person longs to hear your voice
One person wants to know how your day went
One person would do anything for you
Even pretend he doesn't care
Just so you can let him go guilt free

And when you feel lost and worthless
Betrayed or away from your best friends
Left abandoned to yourself or plagued by pain again
Don't forget I'm here, and I still care
I give good hugs, I say nice things
And I can't stand to see you hurt
I'll ease your suffering, I'll share your joy
And even if the world won't lift a finger
Just to give you something to hold on to
Then I'll hoist the fucker on my shoulders
And carry it around with you

Liquid Nebula

We are whispering leaves
We are snowflakes grazing autumn roads
To prepare the world for our winter snows
We are golden dreams
Stars wound in galaxies
We are dying, we are free
We are liquid nebula
We are fallen sons
We are dying suns
We are lost inside ourselves
Waiting for when spring will come

From the sky above me, the liquid nebula
A diamond fell before me while I tracked through mud
And it glowed
Sent tremors through my soul
Then slipped through cracks in my opened palm
And hit the mud below
And for a hundred weary lives I dug
But it could not glitter through the mud

And I'm a fallen son
And I'm a dying sun
So lost inside myself
I don't see the whispering leaves
And I forgot my golden dreams
For a hundred weary lives I dug
But it would not glitter through the mud
And I could not look up to see
A hundred million diamonds raining down on me

If You Forget Me by Pablo Neruda

I stumbled upon this

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine

my poor little heart

Don't worry about me
I'm strong, I can move on
I've been through this before
I'm not afraid, not anymore
It's just my heart, my poor little heart

But I'm not afraid, not of pain
Fortunately, I can do nothing
Fortunately, I have no where to hide
So I can embrace it when it comes
Because it comes.
And I can remember I said that
Remind me I knew it would hurt
And I can repeat those words again and again
But my heart, my poor little heart
Won't listen to me, the stubborn thing
And it will pain for you

And I'm afraid of you
I trust you more than anyone
And that's barely any trust at all
And I'm so afraid of what you'll do
Do it if it suits you then do it I don't care
It's your choice to make, we all make our own mistakes
So just choose something!
Fortunately, I can do nothing
So I can embrace it when it comes
It's just my heart, my poor little heart
It won't know why you chose good bye
And it will break in two

But I'm not afraid, not anymore
Because I've done every bit of this before
Life as I knew it turned on its side
And everything around me turned into a lie
Empty illusions make up the world
I grasp at empty thoughts, empty dreams, empty girls
And if you're the same, I'll walk through the pain
And I'll be strong, I can move on
I'll embrace it when it comes!
It's just my heart, my poor little heart
Will miss you each day, and call out your name
And it will wait for you

But I'm not afraid of what you'll do
Do it,
If it suits you then do it
But I do care.
I want you, your beautiful eyes and your sweet little lips
And the kisses, all the kisses and lot's and lot's of sex
Your sharp mind, your sense of humor, your talents
And especially your flaws
I want it, but I don't need it.
It's just... you know

So don't worry about me
I'd do anything to have you
But I can do nothing
I can only embrace it when it comes
And be strong, try to move on
So just make your decision
And with your incision
Take somebody's heart

Smile

Been a while since I updated so I decided to add this pos I wrote a couple months ago

You remind me that I can do nothing to make myself happy

Because nothing makes me happier than seeing you smile

And I can bleed, I can sweat, I can break my back and cry and crucify myself in the name of love

And it does nothing.

I can fly, hit the moon and break it open. I can challenge god for his seat in heaven and lose my revolution and sulk in hell with satan.

And it does nothing.

I can give away my riches to the poor and raise a garden out of hope and water and save the children from the cold and hunger

And end slavery and child prosititution and sweat shops and corporate scandals and executions and abortions and war and crime and of course pollution

And it does nothing

Then a butterfly flutters, flutters and lands upon your nose

Or something tickles, tickles at the bottom of your toes

And you smile

And I'm happy

And all the sweat and death and hope and pulp I've pumped, pumped into the world is worthless

And all the mistakes my mind is chained to, memories so painful that I wish I could be dead

They're worthless

As long as your smiling, smiling. For that moment I feel peace, like everything's okay. All the suffering I've suffered and the people the world peoples...

It's worthless

Smile

Every moment dies into the next

I'm going to try ripping out a poem right fast, I'll edit it later.

Every moment dies into the next
As a star died into me, I'll die into dust
As my cigarette dies into a butt
As the present dies into the present dies into the present dies into the present
Every moment dies into the next

Like melting glass or water freezing into ice
As the world grows wet and the wet world dries
Strangers die to lovers and love dies into hate
And lonliness to warmth to bitterness and scorn
And mountains into sandstorms and oceans into wastelands
Every moment dies into the next

And hopelessness to love and deserts into gardens
Rotting logs to mushrooms, flowers and worms
Eyes turn into tingles, and I begin to shiver
Lies turn into savage wars and everything that's different
I turn into nothing I could ever have predicted
Never knew the way these changes could have painfully tickled
Lost like a turtle left in low tide awaiting an easier life
In the sea

Old poems from high school

I found some work I did for High school and thought I should move it here.

If you

If you sell pieces of your humanity
Pass them off as your currency
And rap them up for the black market
While the world sulks in a crude casket

If your fame is airborne on blazing wings
Rocketed out to space leaving smoke rings
That linger on to masticate the ozone
While you live up and above all alone

If you make people tremble in fear
Of losing their families and all they hold dear
Enslaving villages with the army of Nike
And with your axe try to strike at their psyche

If you breed death in your giant factories
While sitting down and sipping Peach daiquiris
Acting like you never did nothing wrong
Paying your parrots to keep singing that song

If you regret nothing and enjoy every ounce
Of pain you have caused so you can trounce
Then remember this one sole simple line
You are an enemy of mine



For Tomorrow


Heaven is a struggle
A drop of your blood hitting pavement
A cramp from your shoulders burden
Its when, for a lifetime, you bite your lip
You try to ignore the pain, to keep going
You hold onto your hope
You keep your fist up
While torment haunts your every turn

Heaven is a place
A solitary grave in Nowhere
A giant globe on your back
Its when, for eternity, you are a pedestal
Even your corpse holds the position
You keep it mounted
Without your endurance
It would fall to the ground and shatter

Heaven is a sunset
Over a golden woods
From eyes of your children
They watch their precious, thriving forest
Where the birds sing and the rivers dance
Where life breathes through the very lips
That holds your kiss


Divine Fall

Every line was checked and doubled
Every hook pulled and tightened
My equipment will cause no trouble
And yet I am severely frightened
My bodys tension is not subtle
And my heart beat quickly heightens
I only hope I have the mettle
I only hope my nerve wont lighten

Eyes of mine watch the shadows
Graze upon the black abyss
Oh you sweet and gorgeous tableau
Oh you vixen, lay your kiss
May all my crude, blackened blood flow
May all my sounds be one queer hiss
May my true prideful spirit glow
And write its name upon Deaths list

Dive for treasure or for meaning
Fly for one last piece of hope
Dive forever and without reason
Fly so that I may float
Master fear and conquer treason
Of my bodys quaking coat
Lose the shackles, gain true freedom
Until the tension takes the rope

Not for now and never more
I will not end this at Ballade
It is my future I deplore
Oh Sir Time please send your nod
And freeze this place forevermore
Before my rope begins to prod
Please do not let me see the floor
Right now Im busy touching God