An Ocean bound Experiment (part 1)

The Parasitic Egg lay in my Brain

I can’t stand to live in my head these days
But the locks on these doors refuse to break
It’s a shallow circus / of rotting lurkers / waiting with pokers
to push my presence off a cliff

Rolling a boulder up a hill
Trying to pin it on top and keep it still
Worn out text book / Thrift store jacket / Recycled plastic
And I can’t count all the things I miss

It’s all museums in my brain
It seems these thoughts will never change
And every layer / That’s peeled away / Leaves me in shame
My pale skin burns in the sky

You have no idea with it’s like
What I called real left me behind
I’d rather stay here / Drowning in water / I won’t go farther
It’s just me here with my lie

And I know that door’s not really locked
I barred it down and made a wall
Left me sleeping / Left me sunken / Keeps me dreaming
It’s my drunken parasite

Been told since birth that I was blind
Never knew I could open my eyes
So much beauty / I have a million / Unanswered questions
I left God for in the mail

Hard to admit I’m scared to die
I’d die twice before meeting your eyes
And though it hurts me / I’m not afraid now / So come back in here
I can stare you in the face

How I love to make mistakes
Why should something be made if it can’t break?
You know I’m sorry / But I’m trying harder / I’m still not sharper
All I do makes more decay

I’d do it right with one more try
But this world works in real time
And all my grace / All goes to waste / I have no chance
Where is God with my reply?

So leave my body on the ground
Name forgotten, memory drowned
There’s nothing left / We’re here by ourselves / Nothing else lasts
And all my questions were declined


Chemical Conclusion

She looks out a window in her eyes
To a microscape that she’s too big to fit in
A little world too small to have a name
And as she looks closer she decides
That she wants to get an invitation
To perform a song for this domain

And she decides
that she’s gonna find a way to shrink her size
So she can meet
All the little people that she sees
And they see her
Reflected through their optic mirrors
Walking down a street
Looking for someone who wants to meet
But no one’s coming out
No one wants to think about
A place out there
Where giants roam around the air

So she goes home to the place inside
To her body’s chemical conclusion
A place too big to have a name
A speckle in the iris of her eyes
And the people hear her play some music
So they cut their little ears off in disdain

So she decides
She’ll grab a drum and beat it loud enough
That they can choke
On the rhythm pulsing from their little guts
And they’ll hear her play
The sound will pound their heads buried in the ground
Because she needs
To play her music
And she doesn’t care
About a place where giants fly the air


Satan Loves You

I was walking along a road
With those warm coals under my toes
And I know he knows I know
Oh yeah it’s him
Satan loves you more than Jesus can

And I bend over to look at a girl’s
Butt hanging out of her skirt
And I’m sure as I watch her look back
Satan’s back
And he loves you more than Jesus can

While I sit playing poker with no chips
And my friend looks away so I take his
Then the dealer winks cause he understands
Oh you know
Satan loves you more than Jesus can

When I die and I fall below and I fry
At least I know I won’t have to sit in the sky
And hear you talk about how good you’ve all been
That’s how I know
Satan loves you more than Jesus can


Doused Lantern

I finally see the stars unfold the night
It took so long to escape these city lights
I wonder how much longer is the drive
Before I escape these thoughts of you and I

I’m not upset but my head is stuck
On the wish that we’d never met
So my tank’s dead, my tires raw
Just go away now, just please be gone

I lived so close to the waterfall
But I never bothered to look at it at all
And the state they came they built a dam
Now it’s gone and I’ll never have the chance

And I’m sorry that I was so loud
We got buried by an avalanche
Just accept what’s happened now
Cause you’ll never change the past

I parked my car at the edge of the sea
Laid down on the sand and had a dream
A table lay arrayed with my insides
A flock of eagles sat around and dined

But I didn’t care, no I was fine
A hollow body makes a simpler life
Sticks and timbers were stitched into my skin
And thick with embers was the air I breathed in

And you can never doubt yourself
We live a life of accidents
Just accept what you’ve become
You’ll never find that form again

And I ignited like a bottle rocket
Split to bits so small I couldn’t find them
Now they’re carried in the gentle wind
Off to find undiscovered lands

I awoke and I left the beach
Leaving behind all of those pieces of me
The sun was born on the baby dawn
So go away now just please be gone



Later to the World

Let me take you by the smile
And lead you somewhere no one’s been before
We’ll leave our clothes off for a while
Let the tide float us gently passed the shore
Touch my fingers and forget
There was somewhere else we lived before
Forget the people that we’ve met
We don’t need them, don’t want to see them anymore
They never once believed in us
So far we’ve made it fine all by ourselves
So I’ll hold your hand and smile
And softly hum the sound of wedding bells

I couldn’t ask for more
Than to leave this place, escape with you
And float along the shore
To find somewhere completely new
The waves rock back and forth
Like hands massaging sand beneath our feet
It’s all we once prayed for
A place simpler than humanity

Listen to the breeze now
Underneath are seas of sounds
Listen to me now
This place is real in our minds
We’ll get there some how
Cause I feel the waves touch my
Fingers and I forget
There was ever somewhere else but here
My mind is so clear now
Without the real world to pester it

I couldn’t ask for more
Than to leave with you, escape this place
And float along the shore
While our old world disintegrates



Crawl Aboard the Mole Machine

the Floor beneath my feet
feels Stranger at this speed
and i Look out the window
and See the little moles
with All their fragile goals
they Grabbed with all their hope
Dreams they’d never know
don’t Ever let them go
but as Every breath is pulled
this Train gathers more steam
and the People that came with me (it would seem)
Got off at the last station

and Soon they would repeat
their Thumping little beat
and they Sigh with all their might
to each Other they would pray
a wish toGether they had made
as a Family live each day
on the Things each got and gave
they Wished their world could change
to a More beautiful place
in this World they planned to make (out of love)
it was plenty to be thankful

they’d Grown so sick of greed
that they Cast out all their things
when their Needs became disease
but they Found themselves a cure
they Built themselves a world
rich with Adolescent dreams
a founDation of light beams
but their Dreams would fade away
because They were too afraid
that the Beauty they had made (with all they could)
wouldn’t be appreciated

my Stop passed me long ago
but I’m Not worried cause I know
no Matter where I go
my Heart will be my home
and i Swore I’d live each day
only On what I got and gave
cause i Wish this world would change
to a More beautiful thing
and I confuse my dreams (with real life)
But I prefer my mind’s vacations